I haven’t been writing much – though I’m sure you didn’t need me to state that.
I just haven’t been “feeling” it lately. Nor have I been feeling myself.
I’m currently in the process of transition. This Saturday, Christmas Eve, is my last mass at my current church. Later on in the night I will be going to my “new” church for midnight mass. And just like that, it will be all over.
I feel like I’ve been talking about this transition forever. It’s been two long months of agonizing, discernment, praying and discussions.
The peace about the decision has not gone away, but I’m not happy with the decision either. I don’t want to leave my family.
Like it or not, it’s coming though. And while Christmas is a time of celebration and joy, I feel like I’m putting a damper on the holiday mood.
Throughout all this process though, I’ve realized that I really, REALLY need to stop dragging my feet and just get the ball rolling for religious life. I really need to be more disciplined. I really need to just – move and stop sitting around waiting for things to happen.
My heart belongs to God. I belong to God. No matter what I do. There are always going to be disappointments in life – people will fail you, loves will be lost, things will happen – but God has always, and will always be.
I apologize for not writing much lately. I’d appreciate if you could keep me in prayer. I’ll do the same for you.
Have a Blessed, Merry Christmas. Take time for Christ this weekend, but do enjoy your time with your loved ones. Cherish every moment – you know not where you will be next year…
I need to be more disciplined too. It’s so easy to say and so hard to do! It’s always easier to put off and make excuses (at least for me). Praying for you!
Agree with Hollie completely.
I’ll remember you in my prayers.
LF
I read about the lives of men like John Calvin and I yearn for that kind of discipline and devotion. That’s rare, especially today. I’ll likewise keep you in prayer.
Merry Christmas to you as well!
Every one of us needs more discipline. We all love God imperfectly. So, we’re all right there with you. God bless you in your transition. I’ve done the same thing for different reasons, so I know some of how you feel. You and your vocation are in my prayers.
God bless you.
How did it go?
And I want to let you know … it takes courage to make changes such as this. I hope you know that.